Tuesday, 25 December 2007 @ 01:38
the day fiona is back from m'sia.
"Take any emotion - love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what i'm going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. if you hold back on the emotions - if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. you're afraid of pain, you're afraid of the grief. you're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. you know what pain is. you know what love is. you know what grief is. and only then can you say, 'All right. i have experienced that emotion. i recognise that emotion. now i need to detach from that emotion for a moment.'
When you learn how to die, you learn how to live."
- tuesdays with morrie
people who know me would know that this book has become sort of a bible for me now. haha. but sometimes people just do not do what they preach. haha.
the feeling of regret will never cease to exist. the same lessons can be learnt from playing poker. it is not about if your dare to go all the way, for going all the way would mean you might lose all your money. it's about knowing the opportune moment to stop and leave and reduce the losses, for the next deal you might get the luck and win the game.
ah well. regret is overwhelming me now. i just have to know when to detach from it. cause the next moment i'm gonna win the game. =P
haha. btw pek it's really funny to see your
own name on someone else's report. it definitely shows that sometimes it's just not cool to imitate someone else for being yourself is the coolest. wheee!
will update about m'sia soon. anyhow merry christmas!
so come on, tell me.
Monday, 17 December 2007 @ 16:03
why korean women are mostly housewives.
1 word to describe the past few days. B.O.R.I.N.G
1st aid course was boring. doing nothing was boring. the weekend was boring. weekdays are even more boring. haha.
anyhow i think i forgot to mention this. we went to vanessa's place last saturday to eat. haha. alot of food. we couldn't finish (as usual). there were just too many things. haha. cluedo was fun! haha. cause i haven't played it before. haha can't believed it but we had charades again. haha. luckily i didn't need to plan it again. haha. think i'll be too dry to write any words. all the settlers' cafe practices must have helped. haha. cause me and xtina used all our charades skills to the test. haha. so sad that n had to leave early. boo. i don't know if i'll regret this. but i miss n. haha. come back faster idiot. haha.
and apologise for the last entry. haha. i realised there were like alot of spelling errors. i wonder under what condition did i typed that?
on sat the studio people met up for lunch at a korean bbq place at pasir panjang road. haha. the most vege meal i've ever eaten i think. haha. and the most small plates i've seen placed on the table at one time. erps. except maybe when a group of hungry canoeists go to sakae for buffet. haha. danny said that traditionally women stay at home to become housewives as they have too many plates to wash after dinner. i agreed with him personally. haha. look at how many dishes they have per meal! think they have to spend an hour after dinner just washing plates. haha.
we took photos on the deck of vivo city. will miss you when you go back danny!
and yes i know i tanned abit black. please do not scold me.
so come on, tell me.
Friday, 14 December 2007 @ 01:00
i miss.
the hcanoe team quite badly. haha. sorry for the randomness. but maybe this has something to do with it.
haha. welcome back haoxia! though you've slim down (i concluded it is alot of muscle mass loss and alot of fats gained as well = thus for the loss of 4kg) u still looked the same. haha. as crappy as ever in fact. so guess you turning 30 didn't change anything at all. haha. oh well. ok i shouldn't be so mean since you are the sponsor of the cool baby as shown above (opps i still haven't removed the sticker on the lens. haha.) so i shall be grateful and say THANK YOU HAOXIA. haha. though the racing red lens is like, orange. haha.
anyhow back to the topic. i miss training together with the team. i miss the activities after training together with the team. i miss my macdonald boat (though now i think it's super heavy). i miss haoxia. i miss kallang (though i don't miss the tar ground and the hazardous pontoon). i miss kallang's sunrise and sunset (yes i've seen both). i miss our old boat shed. i miss working hard together. i miss warming up, cooling down together. i miss woon's shouting. i miss haoxia's scolding (i'm not sadistic. we just love laughing secretly when he zao seah. haha.).
i miss the ridiculously harmonious team. haha.
on a side note, i forgot to thank shoe for the present. haha. yup i got it already. though i must say the timing for the receipt of the gift was important as just when i got it from sarah, i went to pierce my ears. haha. like how timely. thank you shoe. miss you.
courteous of bldg blog.
yes this is pretty random. no this is not part of my "missed" list but i just absolutely love this rendering. can somebody teach me how to do this? and i haven't been practising my autocad. someone is going to scold me when he is back.
so come on, tell me.
00:01
golden compass.
so come on, tell me.
Tuesday, 11 December 2007 @ 02:15
bee-ach road.
on my way home today i discovered something that when read in a quick glance says:
bitch road.
haha. welcome to my estate of confusing names.
so come on, tell me.
00:59
eggday.
it has been long since my last entry. sorry yes i know i promised but putting up the photos for my brother's eggday has been difficult. haha. or so it seems.
think we have the same cake every year. haha.
my mum's act-cuteness has no boundary. haha.
wheee! someone is finally 18.
happy birthday di!
love, jie.
so come on, tell me.
Saturday, 1 December 2007 @ 02:09
the day when the holidays starts.
n can you pls stop trying to set rumours that my blog is going to end just because i said i want to keep this going for as often as possible. go get a blog. i wanna slam your entries too. haha.
anyhow no i'm not on holiday (though technically i'm "having holiday" now since i've finished all my papers (i'm sorry my fellow teammates from NUS canoe team)). <-- note: double bracket. haha. too much maths i tell u. yes. my last paper was the linear algebra paper. haha. it was better than expected. at least whatever i could do i could do it quite well. but whatever i can't do there's quite alot of it too. haha. wish me luck. i think i'm losing both my hc powers and my double maths powers.
so it all ended yesterday. met nico in town for dinner. bought my stuff home from school. then ZzzZzz (technically that's true as all i could manage when i was home was ZzzZzz.)
and the holidays started today! haircut 1st with T then enchanted with T n B (opps if this sounds ambigiuous no small n didn't come with us, n as in 'and'). walking around orchard was such a joy. the decorations were nice. the weather was nice. the company was nice. even the crowd was nice (i rarely say this as i really hate crowds). haha. maybe there was only one reason that made everything so nice. exams-over was nice. haha!
i feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.
40 more when i know why you're gone.
what a disaster.
so come on, tell me.
